“Are you going to the studio today?” Mom asked.
It’s a simple question but one I’m having a hard time answering. I’d like to go and work on the painting I started....the one I can’t seem to decide on how to proceed. I thought I knew what I wanted to paint but now I’m not quite sure. You see, I’ve reached a point in my life when I only want to paint the things I feel God wishes me to say. So, until God makes it clear.....
Am I going to the studio today? Or will this be a time when painting gives way to writing.... or simply a much-needed day of quiet spent in communion with God?
Yesterday a friend greeted me with a hug and, “Connie, I’m reading your book, The Road to Forgiveness. You are so talented!”
As I returned her hug, I responded with a big smile and said, “I’m glad.”
The tinge of pride I experienced at her reference to my talent triggered something within I managed to effectively ignore....until today. I can’t ignore my talent but have to remind myself it’s a gift from God... as is my having the ability to use it.... and try to remember to pass by my pride and give thanks to God. I reason it out quite simply.... I have been given an overwhelming need/desire to express God’s working in me. Naturally, God also gives me the tools I need to fulfill that desire.
I have to smile to myself. I know the painting will come to me sooner or later.... in God’s time. I like to think I’m learning to be patient and wait for it. Hopefully I won’t have to exercise too much patience and it will come tomorrow with the time I’m planning to spend at the studio. But today..... Today I think God wants us to spend some quiet, reflective time together and I need to listen.
God Bless!
Connie
